All is not well. Pouring my heart out last night to my boyfriend seemed like a good idea, but it hurt alot. He was the first person id ever talked to about my "problem" (family issues if your wondering). He helped a bit but now its going to be harder to forget, cos thats all i wanna do, forget everything for age 9 and down. Things would be easyer. Even with telling him part of whats eating away at me, it still feels like nothings changed, like its done nothing. To make things worse, he's not talking as much to me. He has other friends, i know that but he is the only person i feel comfortable talking with about "stuff" and when he doesnt reply on msn, it just feels like hes not listening, not caring. I know thats not true. He is all ive got in this world and i still feel alone. Im really hating myself for wanting more when ive got everything i should need; someone that i love so much and they love me back. It feels like theres nothing to be happy for, there is. I know there is but yet my selfish mind wants more. Im trying to find an outlet for all the anger and sorrow thats building, and i havnt found one yet. I used to talk to some friends to get rid of it all but now it seems that ive driffted away from them and we're not as close as we used to be. It feels like ive lost them, and they meant so much to me. It almost killed me when we drifted appart and how when ever i see them in person i barly talk because im trying to be polite. I dont think i can keep living like this. I can feel im losing everyone and everything. Is it all falling appart?